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OUR CY-BOY is 3!!! (Post from April that I found and never posted)

I have had a hard time writing this post for some reason. I have decided I need serious help. I am sad about my little boy growing up and he is only 3. I get sad to think of him getting big and moving away and forgetting about me, which seems impossible because I haven't forgotten about my mother, but you still wonder if they will. I just feel sad when I think of him having to grow up and face this vicious world. I don't want him to be tempted (Satan's plan, I know).. But I don't! I don't want him to be put in a spot where he has to be tempted with drugs or alcohol or pornography or immorality or any of those horrible things that just get worse with time. I just want him to stay in my care ALWAYS so that I know he is being cared for to it's fullest. I really did start this post on his birthday (April 9) but I haven't been able to do it. Sounds silly. Here ya go.. We LOVE our Cy-Boy! He has been such a blessing in our lives in SO MANY WAYS! THANK YOU Cy..

BIG BOY - OH MAN! How did this happen? How is my son 3 years old ALREADY?? I can still remember the day his chubby little face was born into this world. It was one of the happiest days of my life! You seriously wonder how you can LOVE a human so much?? How am I so LUCKY to be blessed with such an amazing son?? I don't know what I have done right, but I thank the Lord DAILY for him and for the happiness and joy he brings to our lives. Cy, THANK YOU for picking me to be your mom!

• NURSERY - Cy keeps us on our toes! He is such a little smarty pants.. He has grown a recent love for nursery, or as he calls it, "Church School".. He likes to think he's going to "School" - I was so surprised when I dropped him off the week before last and he didn't even fuss!! He sat down to eat a snack and then turned around and said "Bye mom, I love you" My heart DROPPED.. It's funny that we complain when they fuss and cry for us, but I was little heartbroken when he DIDN'T! haha.. THEN, when I picked him up and we got in the car, on our way home he said "Mom, I had fun at school". I was in shock! I love that he loves nursery, but it also makes me feel sad that he is becoming so independent! I NEED him to NEED me, but when he is TOO needy I complain.. HA! Typical. Cy, thanks for liking nursery now so I can teach my lesson.
  

• SO SWEET - It's really hard to get mad at this kid.. When I am scolding him for something he says "I'm sorry mom" (when he's not telling me to GO AWAY), or when I'm trying to really tell him something he should NOT be doing he continues to say "MOM!" "But, MOM!" and I finally stop to say "What?" and he goes on to say "I love you!" with the sweetest little expression. WHO DOES THAT when I'm getting mad?? haha.. It helps me take a step away from the situation to realize I LOVE him to, I just don't LOVE his actions sometimes.. haha.. One of my favorite things Cy says to me on a daily basis is "So, how was work?" Cy, Thanks for being such a little sweetheart, even when mommy can be mean at times!
  

• MARRIAGE COUNSELOR - Cy does NOT like contention in the home! At times Collin and I can get into a heated argument and he tells Collin "Daddy! Tell mommy I LOVE YOU MOMMY" and so Collin will look at me and say it and then Cy turns to me and says "Mommy! Tell daddy I LOVE YOU DADDY" and so I look at Collin and say it and then we just kinda have to laugh about it because he keeps us in check! Cy, Thank you for being our marriage therapist!
  

• BIG BROTHER - Cy is so concerned when C.C. cries.. He is such a good big brother! He is always trying to "soothe" her by singing to her, but when she really gets out of control he tends to get impatient and yells at her to "stop crying"!!! He is very helpful and can get me a diaper or towel when I ask him to (most of the time, if his A.D.D. doesn't kick in). Another thing that Cy does that irritates me is trying to pickup C.C. when she is laying down and playing. It scared me so bad, but he always wants to hold her. Cy, Thanks for being such a great big brother!
  

• MOMMY's HELPER - Cy is a good helper! Almost too good sometimes (the kind of TOO GOOD that he's more hurting than helping).. I was making bread the other day and there is a part where the dough is mixing and you pour in 2 cups of hot water and then let it mix for 5 mins.. So I put the hot water in the bowl and walk away from it and hear this SLOSHING around sound a minute later.. I turn around and find that the entire bowl is full of water and Cy is standing right by it with a measuring cup!! My initial reaction was to get mad!! What was he thinking?? He wasted 5 cups of flour and other ingredients!! WAS he thinking?? I grabbed him off the stool he stood on to "ruin" my bread and put him on the stairs for a timeout.. He was crying at this point and when I went to talk to him about it he said, "what's wrong mommy, I was just helping" - I felt like the worst mom EVER!! I got mad at him for trying to HELP and I didn't even give him a chance to explain himself! He just kept saying, "I'm sorry mom, I was just helping".. I broke down in tears! I felt so bad for being so mean about a dumb RECIPE that I could RE-DO in seconds!! Cy, Thanks for being my FAVORITE little helper!
  

• Toy Story - Cy has a new obsession. Don't get it twisted, he is STILL obsessed with Blues Clues, he has just ADDED to his obsessions.. He is into "Toy Story 1" and "Toy Story 2" right now. He loves everything and anything that is Toy Story. Cy could watch both Toy Story's all day long over and over again if I let him! We have watched every trailer online imaginable for "Toy Story 3", and he is SO EXCITED for the movie to come out in June!! Cy, thank you for loving movies so mommy can get stuff done around the house sometimes. I forgot about this song George helped Cy record back in December.. He is singing his favorite Toy Story song, "You've got a friend in me" -
  
  Naturally, we had to wrap his presents in Toy Story paper! ;)
  
  
  

• HATS - This kid LOVES to wear hats!! hmmm... I wonder where he gets it from? He definitely inherited that gene from his dad. His FAVORITE hat is his Yankees hat, but his cousin Jace gave him a Lakers hat for his birthday, so he has worn that one a little bit too.
  
  
  

All Cy wanted to do for his birthday was go swimming. We told him ON his actual birthday that we could do whatever he wanted to do and he said he wanted to go swimming; I'm assuming this is because he asks to go everyday and I shut it down because I don't care for indoor pools.. Yuck. However, because it WAS his special day we took him to his 2 favorite places; McDonald's and the Pool!

SUGAR ADDICT!!!!

I'm sorry, but this is something VERY HEAVY on my mind so I need to get these thoughts out of my head ASAP!!! I am a SUGAR ADDICT in EVERY sense of the word!! I cannot do ANYTHING without thinking of where I'm gonna get my next sugar fix.. I can't sit here at work and WORK without grabbing a quick "snack size" snickers from the front desk counter bowl, which turns into NEEDING MORE and then walking down about 3 or 4 times in an hour to get another "Snack size" chocolate bar, whether it be Reeses, Hershey's, Snickers, Milky Way, Butterfinger, M&M's, or any of the other tempting chocolates staring me in the face I think to myself "it's ok Loni - it's only a SNACK SIZE so just grab ONE and have that be it for the day" - Who can eat just ONE?? REALLY??? Who am I kidding?? BLAST the candy bowl for calling my name on an hourly basis.. BLAST me for being WEAK.. BLAST my sugar cravings that don't EVER let up.. BLAST the person that invented CHOCOLATE.. BLAST my genes for not allowing me to eat whatever I want and still be skinny..

I am "Trying out" this diet thing and it seems like anytime I try diets, FOOD is the only thing that is EVER on my mind!! Hence this post.. When I diet I can't even STOP thinking about food and junk. This is why I am saying NO MORE DIETING for me.. It's MENTAL!! It is really a HUGE problem, because I start out doing SO WELL in the daytime and then I get home and I BINGE like crazy!! I end up devouring EVERYTHING in sight until it's GONE so I can't get to it anymore!! Gone.. as in.. IN MY BELLY!! I'm sorry if this post is making you puke a little in your mouth, I puke a little when I sit at night and think about all the crap I ate that day. That's another thing.. I don't "get sick" from eating too much sugar!! I just DON'T, maybe if I DID I would stop or eat less.. It just doesn't happen, and if I HAPPEN TO do really well for a few days I don't "get sick" from falling off the wagon again and eating 5 lbs of sugar in one sitting.. I hear people say "When I go without sugar for awhile I get sick eating it again" - That just DOESN'T happen to me!! My body is completely IMMUNE to sugar! Really!! Who eats DESSERT before DINNER?? ME!!!! The other reason I can't diet is because it's SO BORING!! I'm not happy because I don't have my sugar fix and I'm constantly thinking of WHAT I'm eating, rather than just enjoying what I put in my mouth. When I'm attempting a "lifestyle change" and I'm sitting at home eating my tasteless chicken and brown rice with non-buttered veggies I almost wanna cry when my family is eating their smothered bbq ribs and pasta covered ALFREDO sauce (my favorite) with oh so yummy french bread toasted and buttered beyond perfection!! It's not fair..

I'm so sorry and I don't mean to offend those that are good at eating healthy and still happy.. I WISH I WAS!! I envy people that can look the other way when passing a "chocolate bowl" and not partake. I envy those that order off the "on the lighter side" part of the menu at restaurants. I envy those that can stick to a diet for longer than 3 days. I envy those that don't eat their kids leftovers. I envy those that "snack" on vegetables. I envy those that "cringe" at the sight of fast food. I envy those that get "sick" when they consume large amounts of sugar. I envy those that LOVE to eat healthy. Thank you for being a good example to me, however, I cannot follow!!

Moral of the story: I cannot diet. It's mental. I binge. MUST workout.

LOST CAMERA!!

I am so sad I lost my camera!! I feel SICK.. Poor C.C. is going to wonder why I have a million pics of Cy at this age and NONE of her!! I seriously don't know where I put it last and I'm so sad about it.. So many memories... Gone!! I'm sorry, I had to vent.. I had a ton of pics from the last few months of baby C.C. and Cy and now I have none!! I also had pics of moving into our new home.. Our FIRST home! Anyways, just had to cry a little on blog and let it out.. K, I'm over it.. Gotta get a new camera now! :( Wish me luck!!

HAPPY 1/2 BIRTHDAY CYNTHIA CONNIE!!

Happy 1/2 Birthday C.C.!!! Our baby girl will be 6 months old today and we have LOVED every minute of having her in our lives.. We feel truly BLESSED to have such a precious daughter of God in our family! I would never have guessed I would LOVE having a little girl as much as I do!! I've always been a tomboy, so I was afraid to have a girl and not know what to do with her. haha.. Sounds dumb, I know.. BUT, ask me how many times I've done her hair... She is lucky when she gets a bow in it. Tasha put pigtails in on New Years, but other than that it's a bow or nothin! lol.. She doesn't mind.. YET! Good thing one of my BFF's is a hairdresser so that C.C.'s hair will get done periodically.

I forget how much I LOVE this age!! They are exploring so much and are so interested in EVERYTHING! So easily entertained.. I just LOVE it!! C.C. and Cy are so sweet together. Cy is so kind and gentle with her, and it seems like C.C. smiles anytime Cy walks into a room.. He can just LOOK at her and she giggles. I LOVE it! She giggles so easily and all the time! Other things she is doing is sitting up (Barely, as of 2 days ago).. It's so cute to see her sitting up and her chubby little legs just chillin.. C.C. LOVES to chew on EVERYTHING she can get her chubby little hands on!! She reaches for EVERYTHING!! She ALWAYS wants cell phones and chapstick! What is it with babies having such a huge interest in cell phones at such a young age??? I think we learned our lesson with Cy and the slobbering of cell phones and breaking them, so we don't really give them to C.C. like we did with Cy.. 2nd child syndrome, I guess.. C.C. is very independent already! :( It kinda makes me sad, because Cy is STILL a cuddler.. They are so different!! I guess it's a good and a bad thing, but she doesn't really like being held as much as Cy did.. She doesn't like being rocked to sleep. When she is tired she likes just being put in her bed to put herself to sleep. It really is nice, but I still LOVE to cuddle my babies. They aren't babies for long, and it makes me sad that they grow up so fast!! This girl is nosy!! There cannot be anyone in the room talking while I'm feeding her because she likes to look at whoever is talking and she won't eat if there is a lot going on and then she wonders why she is still hungry!! haha.. I wonder where she gets the nosy side of her!! hahahaha.. She gets it from BOTH SIDES, so it was inevitable!! She really does look at whoever is talking all the time, and she will just STARE!! C.C. LOVES to eat solids.. We have only given her rice cereal so far, but she embraced it so well the FIRST time she had it! No spitting up! haha.. She was READY! I remember her always watching us while we ate and would reach for our food, so I decided at 5 months that she was ready for solids and she LOVES them! I just bought some veggies to try before fruit (recommendation from our Pediatrician). We will see this week how well she takes to them.. Starting with the greens.. uck.. Good luck C.C.!! Talking has also been on C.C.'s list.. She doesn't really TALK in words (obviously), but she likes to immitate the sound of our words.. I love it!! She is so sweet, she will just blab to herself in the mornings when she wakes up, it doesn't last long before she's screaming to get outta bed, but it's dang cute while it lasts!! C.C. rolls over as well, so we have to really watch her now when she is on beds or in the bath. I love it when she is rolling onto her tummy and she can't get her chubby little arm out from under her chubby body. We have actually been really spoiled with C.C., she is such a happy baby.

There is so much I have done different this time around.. I can actually let her cry for more than 5 minutes when she is in her bed!! haha.. I would never let Cy cry and he still ends up in our bed at almost 3 years old (bad, I know).. I couldn't imagine having 2 in our bed, so I guess her independence has a lot to do with "sleep training". It's been nice, but I still LOVE to cuddle and it was a lot easier to plop them on when they were hungry and just go back to sleep, now I actually have to get OUT of bed to feed her!! lol.. hopefully, as a result of it she will sleep through the night sooner than Cy did. We shall see!! Right now she only wakes up once or twice to eat, so I can't complain.. Cy was still up at LEAST 3 or 4 times at this age.. THANK YOU NICOLLE!!

Overall, we just LOVE our princess!! We can't imagine our little family without her!! We love you C.C... 6 months down and ETERNITY to go!!!

NEW HOME and C.C. GIRL...

I am so late on blogging.. Go figure, we are STILL not COMPLETELY moved in our house, but we are moved in, nonetheless!! We LOVE IT! We love having a place we can call "Home" .. Cy hasn't QUITE adapted as well as I wished he would... Sometimes when we are going to bed or down for a nap he starts to fuss and says, "I wanna go home" and I say "Cy, this is our new home" and he says "No, I wanna go to our other home".. I guess it will just take time, the "other" home is all he has known for almost 3 years now!! Speaking of.. I can't believe my baby will almost be 3 years old!!! TIME FLIES!! I haven't really had a chance to take pics of our new home yet, but I will get on that ASAP!! We have been working on getting furniture and blinds (we are doing the blankets and lavalava's in the windows for now.. Ghetto, I know) We have also been working on finishing our basement.. I will post pics when it's all done!

Lachelle's man came to visit for her birthday / Valentine's day and so I stole a few pics off her blog.. UANI is his name and he is such a great guy!! They are seriously so cute together.. You can KINDA see our main floor and our front porch in these pics.. Not really, but that's all I have right now. haha..

My sweet sister in law, Lizzy took some pics of C.C. for us and I LOVE them!! They really turned out so great! I told her she should look into starting her own business.. She is only in High School and could have a nice photography business by the time she is my age if she starts now! So here is our C.C. girl at 5 months old..

"I'M A BIG KID NOW"

Buying a house comes with mixed emotions.. As some of you may know, we have been looking for a home for quite some time now. We have been looking for about a year now, but our plans got put on hold with the Hawaii fiasco, so now that we have that out of the way we started looking hard core about a month ago, and "VOILA" - we closed on our FIRST HOME today!! WOOHOO!! My very FIRST reaction was ECSTATIC.... Then came...

NERVOUS feelings!! SO MANY responsibilities come along with owning a home (mostly financial), but I figure I can work it out now that I'm 28 years old.. haha.. But, I'm still nervous, nonetheless...

My very last reaction was SADNESS, only to be leaving the home of our in-laws.. We have had so much love and support since we have been staying there, not only from my in-laws, but my family as well.. They were only a hop skip and a jump from where we live now, and they were willing to come over anytime to watch the kids (or I could just drop them off there on my way places). Cy has pretty much been raised in the mornings by Connie (my mother in law), and he will be sad to wake up and not be able stand at the bottom of the stairs yelling "NAMA" until she comes down to get him to come up and eat breakfast, paint, draw, feed the chickens, water the garden, etc.. I'm so grateful for that bond that they have and the close relationship Cy will always have with her because of that..

We will be living in Eagle Mountain, the RANCHES, so if any of you are out that way give us a HOLLA!!! haha.. I think it will take bribing to get our family and friends to come visit us out there! It will be interesting to see how we adjust as our own little family.. However, Aunty Chelle has agreed to live there half the time with us and help out here and there! Thanks LACH!! LOVE YOU!! Can't wait to move into our new house!!!

Above all, I hope to make our new home a warm place to provide happy memories for our children.. A safe haven full of LOVE (that's really how I feel, as cheesy as it sounds)... Wish us luck!!